The plan was to have a YouTube channel, but I had to give that up before I really got started. About two days in, the anxiety of it became too much. Although it started with the symptoms I describe in the video, what you do not see is for the rest of that day and two days after that, the anxiety continued and became increasingly worse. My heart was racing too much, I worried, I overthought things, and I still slept terribly. I am embarrassed to say, I even cried. It was awful. And all because I tried to do something that was out of my comfort zone.
Do not get me wrong…I am a believer in getting out of one’s comfort zone now and then. I just ventured too far for someone with an anxiety disorder.
“Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about.”
– Wendy Mass
I did not want to give up so easily, however. But after the stress of shooting one other video, I made the decision to do a blog, because a YouTuber I am not. Writing is a better choice for me. I have always been much more comfortable with it. In fact, I find it to be therapeutic.
On this site, I will be addressing the same topics I mentioned in the video and posting plenty of related pictures.